Saturday, January 17, 2009


Well, going back to school is really wearing me down. I am so tired I can not even say I am functional. Words escape me when I'm talking and I find myself blinking overlong when driving home. That is the scary part. I don't know what can be done about it. As it is, Bobby tells me to go to bed on nights that Dillon decides to play at 11:00pm. The past three mornings Dillon has not woken up for his 3am feeding. He woke up at 5am this morning and 7am yesterday. I do not know if it's just a two day thing but five would be perfect for his schedule. Then I could feed him before going to school. I guess we'll see.

Bobby is enjoying his time home with the boys. He is getting a lot done considering how much time Dillon requires. I enjoy that I don't have to get Ayden and Dillon ready to go to a sitter's house. I don't know when I'll find time to get things done. I am behind on grading and when I bring it home I never even open the bag and get it started.

Bobby and I rented Dark Knight last night and I fell asleep at the end. I tried so hard to stay awake, it just wasn't working. I'm not the only one suffering. I am so cranky that my kids are suffering a bit too. I apologize to them but it doesn't change that my tolerance is rather low lately and they like to run, shout and play. Well, that's the honest side of things. I think we will settle into a better schedule soon and then my mood will improve. Until then I am enjoying taking everything slow and easy and holding and cuddling Dillon before he's big like Ayden - running, screaming and too big to sit on mommy's lap anymore.


Jeanette said...

It sucks being an adult doesn't it?! There are so many things to do and worry about, time passes by so quickly and we're left tired and sad for missing out. Hopefully, you will get the hang of your new schedule and be able to find the perfect balance in all things. It is so tough when you have a new little one. Good luck.

Castaneda 5 said...

I feel for you! I'm sure you will adjust soon. Enjoy the long weekend!

brooke said...

what's frustrating that I've recently discovered is that I'm focusing all of my energy on getting "things" accomplished that I yell at my kids for disturbing me and I don't take the time to enjoy them. Then I'll kick myself later when they're old and don't like me anymore! That's my sob-story

Angie and Mike said...

I'm tired with my two and I'm not going back to work. I don't know how you are doing it and you are more than entitled to be exhausted and a little grumpy. It takes time to get into a new routine and it takes time for your body to get used to no sleep and the hormones to level out. Hang in there, it has to get better and a few months from now your kids will have forgotten your grumpy moments.

You can do it!


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